I CANT ALWAYS ALLOW OTHERS TO DEFINE ME, IN FACT I CANNOT ALLOW ANYONE TO DEFINE ME OR PUT ME IN A BOX. YES, I AM A BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN WOMAN. WHAT THIS MEANT FOR ME FOR A LONG TIME WAS, I CANT MESS UP, AND IF I DID I WAS BEYOND FORGIVENESS. MESSING UP COULD BE AS SIMPLE AS SPEAKING MY MIND, AND OFFENDING SOMEONE, AS OPPOSED TO PRESSING MY TOE INTO THE GROUND.
I AM NOW AT A POINT IN MY LIFE AND AN AGE WHERE WISDOM IS BETTER ACCESSIBLE, (SMILES), AND EXPERIENCE IS MORE THAN WHAT HAPPENED, BUT ALSO WHAT I LEARNT.
NOW I SPEAK MORE FREELY OF EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL, TAKE MORE CHANCES, THINK OF MYSELF BEFORE OTHERS SOMETIMES, (AND I LIKE IT).
I KNOW NOW I OWE EXPLANATIONS FOR MY CHOICES TO GOD ALONE. NOT EVERY ONE WILL RESPECT THOSE CHOICES, BUT I AM NOT OBLIGATED TO ACCEPT THEIRS EITHER.
AS A BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN, I HAVE TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD YET NOT BE OF THIS WORLD AND I WILL NOT COMPROMISE THAT. YET NOW I CAN LAUGH AT THINGS THAT BEFORE I TOOK TOO SERIOUSLY. MY SKIRT DOESN’T HAVE TO SWEEP THE GROUND, MY HAIR DOESN’T ALWAYS HAVE TO BE COVERED. THOSE ARE LIFESTYLE CHOICES AND BRAINWASHING OF THOSE WE TRUST TO GUIDE US. LOVING GOD IS MORE PERSONAL FOR ME.
I AM FREE TO BE ALEXIA IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD,THIS IS SOOOO EMPOWERING AND YET I HAVE NEVER FELT CLOSER TO GOD!
MANY PEOPLE WILL NEVER APPROVE OF ME ANYWAYS, BUT THAT IS ALRIGHT, IT’S NOT MY JOB TO APPROVE YOU OR OF YOU. IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND.
DISCLAIMER: I STILL CANNOT STAND CURSE WORDS!!
I am so grateful that my sons have each other. As an only child, lol, especially of an only child, trust has never been easy. I am still blown away by the unspoken bond of, ‘no secret’, shared between them. I have since learnt that although I may not be privy to some details, that they have already discussed it. They have many shared interests, including their commitment to giving back to the community.
I do get a compliment at least once daily on my boys, the weirdest thing is, I don’t take the credit for who they are, or for the men that they are becoming. (I do bask in the afterglow, however). I owe the credit to (1) God who gave me these two gifts and (2) my older son has been an amazing catalyst unknowingly for his younger brother, simply because all he knew, was how he was. So he had to make him into an angel too.
Psalm 127:3 & 4
“Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord and the fruit of the womb is his reward. As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man, so are children of the youth.”
Today I thank you for fear. How weird. I thank you for fear because, had it not been for fear, I would not have learnt faith. Fear of failure, fear of hurt, fear of success, fear of love. Through fear you have taught me that your grace is sufficient for me and that you have given me the strength to do all things.
“And it came to pass, because the midwives feared God, that He made them houses.”
“Men do therefore fear Him; He respecteth not any that are wise of heart”
Lord I am thankful for the ability to enjoy material things, but not to be tied to them. My car, my home etc. You have taken me to a place in my life, and in my journey with you, that I now reason, if you allow me to lose all that I have, you are more than able to restore even more to me.
Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.
Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholdeth him with his hand.